"When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. "
-Henri Nouwen

things got messed up somehow.
but tis time, i think.
its me.
well, babe you arent at fault.
shouldnt have brought it up in th first place.
so im guilty fr making you like this.
babe,im sorry.
its just that i feel like im losing you.
im sorry.

*sighs.
i seriously feel i messed up everything
and that sometimes things just hang on the line
and you dont know what to do
because if you take another step you will fall
and if you dont,
you'll still fall.

fuggg life now.
all i want is
to get back what i used to have now
that is snached away from me.
and i miss one-on-ones.
yes,im jealous.
but i feeel unattended. D:

anyway yesterday,i was late fr night class.
because firstly i woke up late.
and secondly AN( its a name, not 'an') haha.
anyway and told me to wait fr him and in th end he cnt make it
so i ended up lepakkk ngan budaks ITE. ;D
oh and they are his friends?
haha, gerekk la k?
bole la tahan and the magic trick was awesomeeee. ;D
siaakkkk eh kau, AN!

anyway.
preparation for O levels is doing fine
though i have a lot to catch up on! D:
but i know i can make it.

but now,im starting to question my options.
i baddddly wanted TOURISM AND RESORT MANAGEMENT
but on a second thought
i think i can do much more better in FOOD SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY,CATERING?
or better SHATEC?
im totally confused.
i loveeee public relations dealing with people and all.
but fooooood coooking bakinggg all those are my passion.
help?

i miss someone.
really much right now.
though we talked like last week?
or last two weeks?
but someone is busy.
and i cnt bring myself to talk to someone.
and it irritates me.
because at times.
i can just sit and stare at people
but my mind,thinks of someone.
hey youuu, i miss you.
talk soon?

and fr my only bby,my lover,my sayang,my all,my world.
babe,you know who you are.
im so sorry.
but i just want the YOU back.
i miss yr presence.
i love you. <3

shit,i messed up.